An Evolution With or Without Mutations?

I have too many decisions to make and too many things to look after.  This is hell.  How on earth do stay at home moms do this???  I just got my last pay cheque so I am officially unemployed.  Even though I haven't worked in two weeks, this is it - there are no more cheques coming.  Panic. I'm sure I can do this - I mean, I've been running myself ragged for as long as I can remember but this organizing my family and myself is tough - and they've only been back to school for three days.  I realize it's going to get better (perseverance) but OMG.

Hunter won't nap at the same time I want to nap so I don't know if he's going to be my favourite or not.  This morning when I put him into the car to go to my - frick - that ear, nose and throat doc guy, I said, out loud "Wow - is it hot in here or is it just me?" And I giggled because I actually said it and then Hunter says "no, it's just you" and he was totally my favourite.  Then he threw up in the car and I had my doubts.  He also napped the whole way home after that so he wasn't really aiming for my good books because I was literally forcing myself to stay awake. 

Ethan and Aaron came home and they played and everything was great until it wasn't and they were fighting.  Took away electronic equipment and made them play a game at the table but there was no pleasing them and then there was more fighting.  We ate dinner and told them there was no more electronics until tomorrow and then they went outside and played - all three of the boys - super happy.  WTF?!

I did my rounds, kissed everyone good night and they were all sleepy and cuddled into their beds.  By this time, I had received my second wind and so off I went to find the nearest computer and try to gather my thoughts with a deliciously cold adult beverage; the mere thought of which, I believe, will help me sleep in the very near future.

 So here I sit, all dazed and confused, wondering if the Mom Evolution was perhaps too progressive an idea..  However, I suppose when you think of the term "evolution", the insinuation is that there will be change.  And in the front seat of this incredible roller coaster ride I have comfortably called "my life" where there are incredible inclines and declines and nerve-wracking screams - there is always room for evolving - of one sort or another.